All I want is an answer.

As I expected when I was 10, I had this scaring conversation with my mother about what my life is going to be from now on. We talked for one hour or so, and I didn’t get anywhere. I didn’t know it was this complicated, stressful and strange. I told her I don’t want to go to college next year, I feel like I’m too young. She asked: “What are you going to do then?”, I was afraid to say “nothing”, then I said: “I don’t know, can’t you help me? You are not helping, you’re just making more and more questions, I don’t have answers.”
I think I want to go to another country next year, get involved with some English courses or something else, and work as an Au Pair, it’s a great program and I think it’s perfect for me, I’ll have one year to relax my mind and learn more English, and I do need to learn more English if I want to be a Translator – Interpreter.
There are a lot of things to think about, a lot of drama and stress. I feel like running away.

Plus, I’ve changed the blog’s theme again. It has this Gossip Girl picture now. Although it’s pretty silly, I like the show. I can relate.

I gotta go now. Auf Wiedersehen!

Election day.

Yesterday was election day in Brazil. We had to vote for city mayor and council-man. It’s quite a big ‘event’ the election days here, we can’t just decide if we’re going to vote or not, if you have more than 18 years old you have to go there and ‘express your ideas’, if you don’t go you’ll have to pay a fine. People who are 16 and 17 can decide if they want to vote or not, same situation for people with more than 60 years. I’m 17, but I wanted to go, it was my first time. I waited something like 1 hour in the line, but once you get there it’s really fast, you just have to press some buttons and it’s done. We use a voting machine in Brazil like this one:

After voting, my parents and I went to my grandmother’s house to have lunch with her, as we usually do. My aunts were there, and also my new cousin Júlia. She’s so adorable and cute! She’s like enormous, and she’s just 40 days old.

Today I didn’t go to school, no special reasons, I just didn’t feel like going. I’m probably going to watch movies during the afternoon.

That’s it for now. Ciao!